Letter to Ash

To: Ashley Williams
From: Commander J. Shepard

Ashley,

I understand that you were upset on Horizon, but to accuse me of not caring about the alliance and everything else was uncalled for. You’re hurting I get that but I have to stop the reapers, Cerberus is the only one doing anything about the Reapers. Damn it Ash, the Alliance isn’t doing shit, and they are still pretending that the reapers don’t exist. That might as well be as slap in the face to me. What was the point of all the work, the sacrifice that I and our crew gave for them to just dismiss the claim? Just so you damn well know I don’t trust Cerberus at all but right now they are the only ones doing anything. I will expect them to stab me in the back at some point and I’m ready for it. But one thing you have to understand is that I was dead for two years. The last thing I remember was being spaced, and the last thought I had, I was hoping that you and the rest of the crew made it out okay. So waking up to find out everything was different was a lot for me to take in. I tried to get in touch with you Ash, but Anderson wouldn’t tell me shit, just that you were on some secret mission that he couldn’t tell me about. Ash you’re important to me, and what happened on Horizon hurt, never thought you would say those things to me.. I still love you Ash, so damn much it hurts. I want you safe and I wish that you could be here with me, but I understand in some sick and twisted way that you need to be with the Alliance and I have to go save the galaxy once again. I hate this situation so fucking much.. people that I have no idea if they will betray me or not. Only Tali, Garrus, Joker and Chakwas are truly worth my protection. As I said earlier I'm pissed at what you said but I’m hoping that time will heal the wounds that are between us Ash. I hope that you understand where I’m coming from. I wish that it could go back to it just being geth that we were chasing and not reapers. I miss you Ash and every day you’re not here it gets worse, but damn it if this doesn’t make you realize that I will still fight for you, for US. I don’t know what will. I need you more than you will ever understand. I’m heading for the Omega 4 relay now and I had to tell you that you still matter regardless of what has happened between us. Understand this Ash you keep me fighting, not giving up hope and pushing on to protect the galaxy. Stay Safe out there Ash, I need you.

Jane